So, I realize that I should have probably introduced myself a little better before yesterday's rant, but you know how it goes.

Hi there.

I'd like to, for a while anyway, keep this anonymous, so details will be vague. So what can I tell you? Well, I'm female, 30 (ish), live with my boyfriend and a myriad of pets.....we both work hard and a lot, and so struggle to find quality time together, have more things we want to do than we have the time or money for, and are currently on the same path of trying to figure out what the hell we want to do with our lives.

Conveniently, we plan on staying together, so we're figuring everything out together. Depending on the day, this can be a good thing or a bad thing.......let's just call it a learning process, shall we?
We harbour no strong religious views (SINNERS!!), enjoy many of the same things, but are not one of those together-all-the-time-OMG-we-cannot-be-apart couples (HATE).

I get frustrated with life, stupidity and ignorance, love nature, reading cooking and music, also, dancing like no one is watching (thankfully, since it often happens in the kitchen), and am working on finally doing the things I've wanted to do for a while now. Seems that turning 30 was the kick in the ass I needed....if only I knew before now that I needed the kick in the ass from myself, and not from someone else.

I'll get around to an about page eventually I'm sure......for now, let's just take it slow, ok? I already feel like I've written a personal's ad.

Those days

Have you ever had, you know, one of those days? One of those days where it's all you can do to not just scream? You know you have. We all have. They're inevitable. I guess my question is: how do you handle them when you have to handle them? When there is no choice. When you can't just go home and crawl back into bed, or maybe just drink yourself into oblivion. What do you do then?

I find I talk to myself then....just in my head....telling myself to stay calm, don't snap at people, it's not their fault I'm having a bad day. But sometimes? Sometimes....I just wonder 'how can you possibly be THAT stupid?'. And then I realize it is a little bit their fault that I'm having a bad day. Sure, maybe it wasn't great before they came along, but they certainly haven't done anything to improve it either.

Lately, I've found myself at that point an awful lot. I'm forcing myself to not be short with...well, with everyone. I'm restless and lazy, tired and wide awake, discontent but happy enough with all the things in my life. I'm ying to my own damn yang. I know I need a change, but I'm not sure what kind. I know that I'm not where I thought I would be, but I no longer have a clear picture of where that is, so I don't know how to get there. And I'm finding other people's lack of conviction and surety and their general wishy-washiness frustrating.....despite my own.

But one thing I DO know is that I will figure it out. I always do.

It's new!

So I've decided to try my hand at the whole blogging thing. As a long time reader of blogs, and occassional commenter, I've always been amazed at the responses and support and overall awesomeness of the blogging world! I have no idea how this will go......it may be just one more thing that I add to my plate....but having a place to jot some thoughts, vent and explore the kind of writing that I want to do, it's the best start I could think of! You know, hypothetically speaking.