Still learning

Alrighty....so we're winging it.
I thought this blogging thing would be easy, yo. Seems I get these great ideas floating around in my head, and so many times I have thought 'wow, if i had a blog, this would make a great post!'. And now here we are, and I got nothing. Well, ok, not NOTHING. But I seem to be having a hard time putting those thoughts to paper, so to speak. And really, that IS the point of this blog - to get back to and used to writing......to learn to express myself more clearly through writing.

I'm in the process of trying to figure out what the hell it is I want to do with my life, and am exploring education options, and career changes and all that goes along with it. For all intents and purposes, I'm currently in what one may consider the best possible position, not from an actual job standpoint, but from an overall employment standpoint. And the thing is, while it definitely has its benefits.....I'm not happy. My job does not make me happy. It doesn't challenge me and it doesn't make me want to get up in the morning. I'm bored and I'm frustrated, and I need a change. And I'm working on it.

The problem is....I feel like this is ongoing thing. I get into a job, and after about a year, I want a change. Sometimes it's because I know there isn't a future where I am, but a lot of times, it's boredom. I always feel like I'm making the right decision at the time, and in the long run, I am, but this restlessness, it makes me wonder. How do you decide what is right for you? How long does it take to find what you were meant to do? I know that I haven't found it yet, but I know what I'm doing now is not it, and I think I know what WILL make me happy. But do some people never find it? I can count on one hand the number 0f people I know who actually love their job. I want to be one of them.

Maybe it's the fall. Despite the fact that I haven't been in school for some time now, I always feel like this is a time of new beginnings, more so than on January 1st. Now I'm just trying to decide what my new beginning will be. This was going to be the year that I made a lot of changes, and I have made a good dent in that list. As hard as I try, I know that I can't do everything at once. But this one? This one is non-negotiable.