So what the hell do I do now????

All the miscellaneous blog posts I had had in my head? *POOF*. Gone. Like the freaking wind.

Ahem.


So my “goals” for the year aren’t panning out so well. Shocking, I KNOW. But I’m not the only one who has fallen off the proverbial wagon.

Aside from reading WAY too many blogs during “work”, I have been up to precisely NOTHING. The Boy and I had a nice, if low-key Valentine’s Day. I thought we were doing nothing, and he in turn made me a nice candlelight dinner with champagne, gave me chocolates and flowers. I, on the other hand, went against my better judgement and got him sweet fuck all, and now feel like a heel. And a cheap one at that. So I’m trying to think of ways to make it up to him. (SHUT IT).

I’ve been thinking about my life in terms of my hobbies and what I actually have passion for. Not that I’m necessarily looking for a career change at this point (HA! career…), but what do I do that ultimately makes me happy?? I mean, lots of things make me happy, but is there anything that I enjoy so much that I could turn it into a career should the opportunity present itself?

I have lots of interests that are going unfulfilled….I started (barely) an event planning course that has fallen by the wayside. But I like planning and scheduling things like that. I like the research and seeing events and stuff through form beginning to end. I’ve looked into taking nutrition and wellness specialist’s courses. I like learning about nutrition and health and fitness, despite not actively do the things I need to do to follow through with what I’ve learned. But do I like it enough to make it a career? Do I like either of these things enough to make it a career?

Add to this the things that I want to do for fun, and holy hell…..well, there is not enough time to do it all, and not enough money to pursue it all. So how do I choose?? I want to travel, I want to take cooking lessons, I want to learn to row, I’d like to finish my scuba certification (that one isn’t likely, but I do WANT to finish, so it counts). There are more, but these are the ones that have crossed my mind most recently.

I’m past the point of being able to do “30 before 30”. I can do a life list like “101 things in 1001 days”, which seems a little more reasonable, but I suspect I would get discouraged if the bulk of the things I wanted to do couldn’t be completed due to aforementioned lack of time and money. So what says you, Innerentz? How do I go about accomplishing my goals in terms of hobbies and passions? And the first one to say ‘you just have to do it!!”, gets a kick in the teeth. It is indeed easier said than done. So tell me how to make it done easier.